Jan.30th 2012 Great Bend, KS- Companion Sister Rupper No spiritual thoughts, no positive words of encouragement. Just enduring. That’s all I can give this week.

Jan.30th 2012 Great Bend, KS- Companion Sister Rupper 

No spiritual thoughts, no positive words of encouragement. Just enduring. That’s all I can give this week. 

Honestly I don't have a whole lot to report on. I knew this transfer was going to be hard and sure enough it’s living up to its potential.

I'm exhausted. I have never been so physically and emotionally drained before in my entire life. I think half of the ward told me I looked tired on Sunday. Thank you everyone! If you only knew...

Our investigator Pam and her daughter are really struggling. It's an abusive situation. Pam has some major anxiety, depressive and everything else issues. This week I think was a whole new level of crazy. She called at 11 pm Tuesday night crying hysterically saying she needed us.  As we walked into the house Pam was against the wall rocking back and forth with tears streaming down her face saying over and over again, "I'm the devil."

This was so not normal. I was able to get her settled down enough to talk. Ellie (her 12 year old daughter) and her got into a fight. Pam over reacted and she started throwing things. Ellie and her apparently went at it but thankfully no one was hurt. I had Sister Rupper take her to the living room and I went to check on Ellie. I found her in her mom's bedroom. I didn’t know what else to do but just hug her. The poor girl just broke down. Ellie is 12! 12 years old and has gone through more crap than anyone should have to go through in their lifetime.  I was able to get her to calm down as best I could and told her to stay where she was until she felt comfortable.

I found Pam and Sister Rupper in the living room reading aloud scriptures. We talked and after a good hour and a half we left.

Our week continued and guess what? Thursday night we got another late night call. It was the same situation once again.  I didn't feel right about going to their house this time so I told Sister Rupper to go back to sleep and I went into the kitchen to call Pam back. She was in a very angry state. There was a lot of screaming, yelling and crying going on.

I told Pam to shut her bedroom door and to keep herself away from Ellie. With fear clenched around my heart and continual prayers to Heavenly Father I talked Pam through her little episode. I told her that this all had to stop. She couldn't go on like this anymore. She swore to me that she would get professional help. 

After the phone call I fell to the kitchen floor with shaking hands. I had so many things running though my mind. My prayer to Heavenly Father was simply to please help them get through the night.

Sleep that night was no longer an option. Pam sent me another text saying sorry; that she didn't like that I was mad at her. It was like trying to talk to a 5 year old. She knew I wasn't mad at her but just wanted my assurance. 

First thing in the morning I called President Keyes. I didn't know what to do anymore. He assured me that they both needed professional help and that we couldn't see them anymore. Deep down I had known that for days but had been ignoring it. It's such a sad situation.

Adding to all that excitement, I became a Sister Leader and will be in charge of a few other Sisters.

Oh... and we have no one to teach. It's been an interesting week. Everything is okay really. It’s not easy AT ALL. But it’s okay. We are striving to find people to teach. We are doing what we are supposed to and I know that the Lord is aware of us.

That's really all I've got for the week. I'm hoping for a better days.

Sister Hall